i've got a secret. im bearing a huge grudge right now. the kind where when i see the particular grudge, i cringe in disgust at its absurdity and ironicness and the whole full of shit. and i for one bear long and deep grudges especially when its stupid, and when its an accusation and when i did nothing wrong to say the least. one question, are you happy now? because i can never go back and look at it in the same way again. thank you very much. im angry really volcanic angry. today was just the steam. spoiler of spoils. im killing my relationship, thank you very much. and because the absurdity is putting a strain. im so happy now i could cry. everything's a changing.