The Story Of My Heart...

Friday, March 28, 2008

I really have got a feeling that i'm in a game where i will never win.
Seriously.
Just when i decided to let it go, everything french.
Not for the French immersion, drop french and not choose France for SEP.
Not that i manage to make that decision easily. But for me the decision was a conclusion then.
To help me focus on my other so many stuff.
Then today, i just received news that throws me back at square one.
Confused, unsettled and flustered.
Some smart ass decided to give me the Language immersion award with a 4 week sponsered trip to France excluding air flight of course.
I know i should be happy.but.
How now. 2nd-26th June.
Maybe i still can be a superwoman and squeeze everything in.
The only way is to postpone my driving test. 6th June.
And should i start special term 1 week late? =(( Is it possible?
Special term part II - 23rd June to 2nd August.
Its real important.
So which priority ranks higher?
But then comes the problem that if i reject the award, I'm making a fool out of myself.
If i continue to bypass chances, would i still be given opportunities in the future.
How long more can this luck last.
If only luck befalls me on all the right situations...
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You know what would solve my problems?
That big revelation in June.
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Now i'm afraid to want anything.
Just as i decide to give it up.
It comes back to haunt.
Making a mess out of things.
Maybe i should play the game of opposites.

**xoxo cher at 7:50 pm
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