The Story Of My Heart...

Tuesday, June 12, 2007

Pretending like everything is fine now is so deceiving.
*
Arrived early with poofy eyes. (only fact that i couldn't hide)
Smiled and pretended that i was in marshmallow land with care bears as my friends.
Weasel laughed and said what made me so happy today. Was it because i recieved a certain letter?
He'll never know how off the mark his guess was.
I'll say that, for now. That place was my sanctuary.
Its like being in Timeheart.
All unhappy thoughts vacuumed out to some other universe.
*
Last night,
took a ride down to wheelock's place.
Found this new ice cream place, haato =) I'm so gonna eat that milk ice cream the next round.
We all dined at Sakae sushi, ordering the usual.
Aaron was the only one late.
Amazing thing was that we supposedly met up to watch shrek 3, but decided to give it a miss in the end.
Kev dressed in pink kept making me laugh. Yea, he's a self declared SNAG. *grins*
He's t-shirt colour matched his face shade on saturday night. After, red wine. So cute. =))
Besides the 3 of us, Sarah, derrick and Xing took the time off to meet up too.
Heard this cool, agh story that made me cringe.
'Kev had a friend who wore braces and played basketball.
Once, there was this match, a much taller guy had possession of the ball, collided into Kev's friend and got his eyebrow skin caught with the braces.
Next. Kev's friend immediately pulled away.
Ripping the skin and flesh out from that poor guy's forehead.'
Ouch.
It IS quite amazing. Never knew it could happen.
I guess that's why they say, never kiss anyone with braces.
Lip Flesh lock. *cringes
hahaa
*
A random thought.
Total opposites.
One is becoming an increasingly charming guy. Reminds me of a cuddly bear, that makes me smile.
The other, emo and angsty. And yet. Like a lost puppy, that makes you want to hug and comfort him.
*
Last night,
I had this crazy dream.
Took ages to sleep. Doesn't help much that the nose was blocked all the way up to the bridge.
But when i slept, i dreamt.
I dreamt that there was a happy ending and what happened last night was a dream with my dream being the reality.
I dreamt that I was chased by a ghost who kept calling my name.
I dreamt I screamed for help and nobody came. Nobody came to comfort me.
I was all alone. So very alone.
I cried in my dreams.
Cried as if my heart was being stabbed. LOL
No escaping the tears when they just want to come, i guess. hahaa.
There's always science and logic behind everything.
*
Sidenote.
She'll be coming back from the States tomorrow. Boo has already booked the car to pick her up.
Boy, will she be surprised.
I bet they chatted every night on the phone. But that's none of my business. haha.
At least there's still going to be happy people in the world. And i'm glad its them. =)
*
Thought it over.
Its stupid to feel terrible over that.
Since it was me who brought it up.
Ironic isn't it? Self-inflicted pain. An illogical move. (maybe)
And i told myself, i'll never be upset about this kind of stupid things.
Not worth it. SO not.
Even if i wanted to retract those words, its impossible now.
I don't know how to.
Show me how?
But then again, there's self pride.
Sighs.
What have i done?

**xoxo cher at 1:37 pm
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