Whats this? The feeling of being unable to breathe. It seems as if there's this need. Thats just barely identifiable.. Doesn't it sound silly? You can be looking, and yet not looking.. Only thinking. Like a silent wish..that's suppressed. Self-denied. Shan't go there. Shan't think too deeply. What's happening to me? * I'll escape to UK this june. HOpefully. A beautiful summer, away from all of this. Let's start a small shop. I can just imagine. *dreams* * There's so much i want to do. I'll just believe.