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The Story Of My Heart...
Friday, September 22, 2006
end of prelims
Did you hear? Its the end of the prelims. hahaha ** Bang! I really want to bish myself for committing those careless mistakes. arghhhhhhh Oh never oh mind. Its just a few measly ones right? I agree. But doesn't it just get on my nerves. sheesh..haha.. ** For the first time in a while, i'm stuck at home after exams. haha.. No lifer huh? ** Now all i have to do is dread the results. *crosses fingers* Tell me, sometimes i wonder why do i even try so hard. Esp. for my weakest subject, Physics. When i don't feel the results of my hardwork? IT isnt like secondary school anymore, where results just drops from the sky without actually lifting a tys. *guilty look* I do feel like an energizer bunny. But even energizers run out of energy one way or the other. I feel that i'm somehow leaking...be it outside or inside. ** hmmm...maybe i should switch to hydrogen fuel cell. haha well it lasts forever as long as there are reactants constantly being supplied to it. Hydrogen----> Believe, Faith and trust Oxygen -----> Love and hope <3 :) ** Sure..i do count my blessings for having a great and understanding family, who are both open minded and supportive of my dreams.. Yes. I love them to bits and pieces. I'll really be a lost little butterfly if they werent beside me. Yup. So that explains why i'm more sad when they're sad and happier when they're happy. I guess thats what love means. =) Self-driven. Even when they say that its alright, we're proud of you anyway, somehow deep inside you know it isn't ok. Maybe its reverse psychology and mind games. When nobody pushes you, you spur yourself on. Maybe its just my thinking acting up again. BUt it sure doesnt' feel that way. haha. I do feel lucky to have them as compared to others who cant really treat their parents as friends. uhhuh... haha I don't even know why i'm splatting all this on a public blog. Maybe i'll delete this post later. blehh.. And jot it down in my red book - cherlyn's pensées secrètes.. haha ** Positive attitude stinks. Sometimes its just so tiring. But there's no other way around. *nods head* So while i'm being a cathode, Please don't come and burst my bubble of happiness. Its shiny and round. And i like it so. If you do, i would really just swallow you up. Don't blame me if i bite. =p I don't really know any other way to survive. ** My only hope on watching monster house vanished with the little few screenings left. Bahhh... That's life. With all those little disappointments. But it does make me into who i am. Defines me. I'll just treat them as auxins and gibberellins, learn and grow from them. Hahaha.. ** Lil by lil... Nahh... ... ... ... certain things seriously can't be splatted. haha..Unless asked directly. ** Toola~ enough nonsense from me already. blearghhhh.. I heard its 40 days to gp examinations. O_0
