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The Story Of My Heart...
Thursday, June 01, 2006
~The feelings~
Jeepers...i feel all guilty and wierd inside. Too much time spent at sailing i guess and barely none on my work. How? Seriously, i hate to let down people. Sometimes i wonder, am i living for them or myself? But what if they are the ones that define me? Yep. I guess, they are in other words, me. Thinking too much hurts the mind. ** Do we (I) have to be so politically correct all the time? Like a eagle with its wings clipped, i guess we all want to break free sometimes. Politically correct IS the best option right? Say it is. ** GEez... Why did i have to complicate issues further? Maybe i should have hurt myself and dress the wounds in time. Its frustrating not being able to understand what's the reaction to all of this.Happy? ...? or ...? I don't want to pose questions and "dig" answers. Its just not me. ** Journaling is emotionally draining. Imagine if i lost my journal? My thoughts would be known. Even by blogging i'm taking a huge risk. hahaa.. hopefully everyone who stumbles upon my ramblings would be lost in a pool of words. I still rather be a mystery. hahaha. ** I like the word "wait" It has gazillions of meanings to it. And i like my preferred answer to it. A perfect match would hit a perfect score. TADAAAA... However, the odds against it are sky high. Then again, life is full of surprises. ** I must concentrate. I will. I can.
