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The Story Of My Heart...
Saturday, March 18, 2006
100th post
The holiday's ending pretty soon. Oh phooey, not that it was a holiday for me. Can you believe it? I didn't go out this whole week! haha... I didnt blade nor did i catch any flicks. Its quite sad actually. I feel sad. =( That's not a good feeling. Well... Being sad doesn't quite erase the fact that i feel quite terrified. Terrified out of my wits. What have i done this past week? Time really, truly, rushes by like a steam train. Choo-choo-choo-ing away..and leaving me behind to deal with all the smoke. *coughs* My eyes are covered by the puff of smoke, it seems that way at least, since i'm almost guessing, feeling my way through everything. Maybe its my fault. Sighs. I guess i do complicate stuff sometimes. Why do i always seem to do just that? I bet you can name an instance. At that moment in time, i should not have ran away. Maybe, maybe i ran away hoping, wishing you'll reach out and grab my hand. There's stilll time, i hope there still is. In life, we can only continue to hope, wish and believe. Positive thinking. Pro-active. hahahaa *** So here i am. Spouting (typing) nonsense. Haha. Maybe its the nonsense routine of staying at home thats getting to me. hmmmm... I realised something. I'm usually talking in circles. Concentric circles. haha. Using figure of speeches or typing stuff with hidden/double meanings. Hohum.. whats the point anyway of letting the cat out of tha bag. I'm still the secret keeper aren't i? or should i just pass the job to someone else? *** I guess tomorrow's going to be the same old routine again. Unless a miracle or something happens to break this curse-like situation of mine. But what are the chances of that happening? Zilt. Non. Zero. Kaputt. haha.. No-lifer. The world and its people have left me behind again. *the drama* I'm offstage. *bah* My world is becoming of one colour. URgh. The dreaded monotonous feeling of it all. That cold, chilly feeling creeps up. I look behind and see no one. [wide-eyed] nah-uh..my life aint that interesting. 0_O That's just cold hard reality knocking on the door again. Wake me up when this year ends. *sticks out tongue*
