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The Story Of My Heart...
Saturday, January 14, 2006
revolution
Dear diary, I'm going to revolutionize the word 'mugging'. Its gonna be a new, cool, 'In' thing. Hahaa. Sighs... I think i've to postpone every fun event, occasion until the end of the year. That's quite sad right? I think so too. But that's just a rough plan of what should lie ahead of me. Maybe, maybe there will be some fun moments. I do need breaks! Afterall, i'm human too...though i need to be superhuman for this gruelling year ahead. I bid goodbye to: 1) St.valentine's day... Not as if i'll be on the recieving end of anything..sighs. There's gonna be a test on the morning! Biology... How insensitive of the teachers... No lovey dovey stuff..I hope there's gonna be something happening that day.. oh yea..there's gonna be 'Soire' this valentine's day school performance thingy..cool right? haaha.. 2) My birthday... Why oh why must there be mid year's after june holidays??? Everybody's gonna be mugging. Don't think there will a possibility of them sparing some of their precious studying time to celebrate for me...much lest organise something...*shrugs* 3) And of course all those school holidays, public holidays. * Thank god that Christmas is way after the 'A's and that Chinese New Year is way before it. hahaa... I can't wait for the end of the year!!! Of course i know the new year has just began, but then all that free time to relax and play!!! To do all the stuff that we want to do. For now, I will, i must pull through... we reap our own rewards... *** Why is it that some are so insensitive? Why is it that some are so negative? Well, i guess they do make the world more colourful and stuff... But i can't help but feel urgh...you get what i mean? Can they try to keep those emo's to themselves please... I'm like trying to keep my confidence level at max. my postiveness at a soaringly high level. my happy attitude towards all the small kindness, sweet things and just life. So please oh please, stop stepping on me...stop squashing my dreams. All i need now is for you and everyone else to believe in me. *** Why is it that some aren't expressive? Do i sound contradictory? No. I mean all the positive stuff. Is it because of the way they are brought up? I'm glad i'm brought up in the opposite way. To show all the positive emo's and stuff. Life is just too short to not show it. As in what if there isn't any tomorrow..We would never know right?And it wouln't be great to have regrets about the stuff we didnt say/do...That's why there's all those lost spirits, who have infinished business in life. No wonder there's all those advice on asking people to show how much they care for each other. I guess some people just find it hard and stuff to express.. That's quite sad actually. If this is the case, they would be missing alot out on life right? ** Goshness... I sound like...wait, what's that word? oh, a preacher...am i? But is it a good/bad thing? Argh.. Just look at the amount of questions i have in my mind. It would be easy if i had a problem solver. But that just takes the kick out in the mysteries of life..hahaa.. ** Oh wells..i'll figure that out later. At present, I cant walk on the sidetracks.. There's gonna be one road and only one. The path that i will take. Don't try stopping me, there's not gonna be a halt in this moment of my life. I will jump over any obstacles..Been practicing my jumps lately..haha I will, i must preservere. I can do it! I will do it! I must do it! Go cherlyn go!!! *** ***
